observations on high school girls

there makeup is always perfect, they seem to have found that delicate line between fierce and natural looking, effortlessly. they never drop things in halways and have to stop the flow of traffic and bend down and pick it up. they never look like a little girl wobbling around trying to fill in her mothers heels when they wear purses to school. they arnt afraid of the moments that strike them. there jeans are 200 dollars and the designs and colored stiching on the pockets and hems always match everything else in their outfit. they never battle with their weight. they never carry around binders yet they seem to effortlessy pass all their classes as if it was nothing. when looking at them you doubt if they ever forget to change their tampon or bring and extra pad to school. they ALWAYS have it together. they always have accersories like scarves or jewlery or belts or something. everyday looks as if their workin their fav outfit that they put lots and lots of time putting together. they always have a steady fling with someone that most likly will turn into a placid yet steamy relationship. they could not be virgins and they would be thought of none the less. they dont walk they glide. i bet they never forget to do their laundry. they never have teachers mad at them and if they do it really dosnt matter. they skip class and its the same as if they went to class and raised their hands to answer every question. they can go to parties and get high or drunk on the occasion and its nothing to speak of. many of them drive and may perhaps not live at home but at lavish appartments of their own. they have the most up to date technology and always know the latest scoop of gossip before you and its not a big deal. they are almost never seen with friends yet have filled to the brim socail lives. many boys want them and they flirt but no other girl bats and eyelash at it. they can send naked pictures to a boy and others many find out and it will be meaningless. they may complain of a thing that didnt go anywhere because a boy treated them badly but someone on fridays they always manage to be wearing a star players jersey. they have a look of calm resignation to being perfect on their faces. they never doubt themselves. their hair never reacts to the weather. their belts and leggings always stay in place. they can be tardy to class and it will be as if they were there 5 minutes early. they carry everything a girl needs in their purses and they have something thats a solution to everything. they never have moments of doubt and awkardness like what should i do now? or where should i sit because i have no friends in this class? they go through the day never opening their mouths but have socialized with everyone. they never feel nervous or unsure about going on a date because there will never be a dull moment in conversation and they dont have to worry about being a bad kisser, or if to hold hands. they are more than comfortable to eat the messiest foods on a big screen in front of the whole school, but somehow they manage to escape eating completly and never be hungry. they always have money and the latest clothes though they drive and dont have jobs. everything fits into their schdule without the least bit of conflict. they dont care what other people did and if they cared to listen it wouldnt be anything bad. their hair, makeup, outfits, nails,everything is always perfect without the least bit of shown effort. they only like one boy who likes them back immediatly and its done. that simple. they sins and mistakes are forgiven instantly, or perhaps they dont make and mistakes and their sin is instantly changed into a act of good will.
they are not girls but woman of a higher kind, they have found themselves in their own skin. how does one become one of them?



can it be done through crying your eyes out over boys who hurt you one too many times? is it from messing up so much that you can't get any worse so everything you do from then on whethere it used to be a mistake or not is now fine? can it be done through countless bad hairdays that you learn to manage any hair day that comes along with ease? can it be done by sitting through so many classes that you learn to not be there and it would be as if you were? can it be done through some very very bad trying to be daring outfits that one day everything you wore no matter how on the edge of fashion it worked and was respetable? can you accumulate a closet that has a jacket that matches everything and shoes that go with everything and an accersori that you never forget you have that just goes splendlidy with your outfit? can it be done through countless akward moments that you simply learn how to use your femine whiles to relax fates cruel hand unpon your human interactions? can it be done through learning everything the hard way?

if so, i should be getting there any damn day now.