Rereading some of my old post made me realize just how wrapped up you can get in your own life. I recently learned that things hurt a lot less if you accept the truth, flat out. I think alot of us girls know the truth but refuse to accept it instead we painfully disect everything and wonder why it is when we already know!! We simply dont like the truth and ignore it and try to find our own. In the end we painfully realize some way or another what has been staring us in the face the intire time. For instance:
Marcus texted me on friday. flirting heavily. hes done this before not this kind of in your face flirting. he has a girlfriend. I went of facebook. she had broken up with him on thursday. he kept digging for compliments and bagering me about things like, do i turn you on? tell me im irresistable. occasionally he would tell me im perfect or irrestistable or admit to checking me out because im sexy. those little bacon bit compliments kept me going. thinking it was doublt sided. however it was not. he hasnt texted me in a week. now, the whole time i was texting him i wanted to say "Marcus I know the breakup with Taelor was rough, and your needing a little bit of an ego boost right now, but i am not your consolation prize!"
Now, did i say that? no! i just kept ignoring the truth because it wasnt what i wanted to hear. after about four days of texting marcus literlaly every waking hour he got sick of me, had used me as a rebound to get over taelor, and just stopped texting me. i wrestled with this for the remainder of spring break and a good week later accepted the truth instead of drawing out the process. To my amazement i found it didnt hurt!
Acepting the truth, whatever it may be, and not trying to analyze it or over think it. Just accepting it for what it is and refusing to let yourself get hung up on it, is such a relief! it dosnt hurt nearly as bad as when you throw a little pity party and think about him all the time. Just accept boys and what they do to you for who they are and what they do. Don't take everything so personally.
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